In a whirlwind...*

I have been dreading writing this blog post, I saw so much and did so much while I was away that I was dreading having to choose which parts I should mention and which I would leave out, only problem with waiting is that the more time that went by, the more things I did and the more I would have to blog about.

First things first - Blackpool Dance Festival. What a wonderful week and one more thing I can tick off on my list. I was surrounded by people from all over the world, places I have never even heard of before. I saw the most beautiful dancing and I left wishing that I could dance just like them. I have never seen so many REALLY beautiful people all in one small place before. Every girl was beautiful with the perfect body and every guy was equally as beautiful and perfect. All the dancers dress so stylishly all the time and it got me to thinking that I too would dress stylishly all the time. I was always afraid that being stylish all the time meant that one was over dressed all the time, but I learn't that being stylish and being over-dressed are not one in the same. Besides, why do I care what other people think anyway? 

We travelled to places like York, London and Edinburgh. York and Edinburgh were beautiful, probably the only places that I could see myself living in, if I ever had to. London is too big for me, too busy, it loses its beauty. It doesn't feel like a place I could ever call home. 

I learned a lot about myself while I was away. It was great to just get away and see something different. Every woman there had so much confidence and so much grace. It really made me realize how important  it is as a woman to feel confident about yourself. Your confidence isn't just something that you feel, it gets shown to the world just by having it, or not. When a woman is confident, she gets more respect and every woman should be respected. Confidence isn't thinking you are the greatest thing in the world. It is simply loving yourself as you are and understanding that as a woman you are worth the world.

As soon as I got back I felt like I had hit the road running and wouldn't be able to stop until my exams were over. I applied for Universities only to find out that I had missed the medicine application for the one university i thought I might stand a chance with. I guess its just part of the plan. My applications are almost complete. Thats one more thing on my list that I can say is almost done. As soon as i got back I was back to au pairing. it was good to get back into the routine. Sadly my sporting activities did not proceed a successfully. I have continued cycling,  but gym, yoga and running as taken a back seat in my life. This is not the cleverest of plans but with exams and work I couldn't do everything. My half marathon is in 2 weeks and so I plan to start running full force from today and gym will also once again become a regular activity. 

The exams went well, at least I hope so and so I feel better about the rest of the physical science year. I am on a short break with SACAP, which is perfect as it gives me time to catch up on the reading which I have fallen behind on. I write my university access tests at the end of July and in August. This is something I am dreading, but then at least I will be one step closer to seeing which University I will be attending next year. 

The Miss South Africa entries close on the 6th July and so I plan on completing my entry form soon and sending that through. It seems strange entering for something that I know I don't stand a chance with, but it is on my list and so it shall be done.


I leave for Plett on Friday with the girls and so the adventurous week of races, oyster festivals and good plain girl time is just about to begin. 


I managed to once again meet with my favourite teachers and have my annual dinner party where the meal of choice was Thai green curry and Sago pudding. The guests of honor being: Paige, Jo, Andrea, Lisa and Wade. 

In this month I have managed to gain so much happiness within myself. I don't know if this is a result of a final acceptance of who I am, or simply growing in my self- knowledge or learning to always make the decisions that I know are the best decisions for me. Whichever reason whether it is one of them or all, I love the outcome. Every single person is unique and that is something that should be celebrated, everyone must stop looking at the people next to them in envy of something that person has, that they do not. We wouldn't be as special if we were all the same. When you reach the happiness that I finally have you stop looking for other people or things to make you feel happier, you don't need them. You don't need anything but to love yourself.